Wow, I loved this Rebecca. It’s been so cool to see you grow and evolve as a writer. I loved the flecks of specificity and personal details - like your wallpaper on your bedroom wall.
I’ve went through phases of feeling strong but kinda heavy and lean but kinda skinny. It’s tough to feel content. (Especially when I walk in a park and see people doing callisthenics and realize I’m actually so weak even if I lift heavy weights lol). Thank you for sharing :)
Thanks Tommy! One day the PowerPuff Girls will have their own Substack post... maybe.......
And yes, the grass truly is greener on the other side, as is how there will always be people stronger, faster, leaner, fitter than we are. Still learning how to take myself, at this current moment, in stride, while also pushing myself to be better if I know I can be.
Really enjoyed this! Is there any other way to achieve something than to commit to it (pay for it) and then figure out how to get there later? Because if there is, I don't know about it haha.
Public commitment is one! I have an unspoken public commitment to publish on this Substack every week so every Sunday night I'm furiously editing away.
Another one in the opposite of paying is to get a paid gig. I've said yes to editing PowerPoints, running events, and copywriting without being 100% confident (though I'd say I knew I was capable). Often times it's more of a confidence gap than a skill gap, so a bit of pressure (from being paid) helps :)
I guess a part of me feels like those are different forms of the same thing, committing before you're ready and then figuring it out how to make it happen from there. But it's really helpful to think about the different forms of it; thank you! :)
Sep 18, 2023·edited Sep 18, 2023Liked by Becky Isjwara
It seems kind of like the question, "If a tree falls in the woods and no one hears it, does it make a sound?" "If a person does something for the wrong reasons that brings benefit, does it count?" Of course the answer is, "It depends." But if those wrong reasons don't cause anyone harm, then why not make use of them? Sounds to me like you're creatively and successfully navigating the complex path of human change.
Running was very similar for me for a long time. Then, quite recently, I went back home to live with my parents for three weeks and there, bored of being stuck inside the house, started running around their little condo. Something shifted. Now, I look forward to the pre and post of running. It feels good. It always feels terrible while I am doing it though 😀
I relate to this so much - I never regret going out for a run and my body always feels better afterwards. Sometimes it does take the right conditions to make taking actions "easier". Excited to hear more about your running :)
You're so right, it's often not mutually exclusive and can be a confluence of factors! I'm trying to shift slightly to "want"/"excitement" though it IS a challenge every time. I guess running is truly an endurance sport, both physical and mental.
"I still don’t know whether it was spurred by anxiety or excitement."
Oh, this resonates.👀 A bit of both, I imagine.
And both in moderation! I don't think I have done a run that's 100% excitement just yet. Maybe it'll happen one day. Maybe.
Wow, I loved this Rebecca. It’s been so cool to see you grow and evolve as a writer. I loved the flecks of specificity and personal details - like your wallpaper on your bedroom wall.
I’ve went through phases of feeling strong but kinda heavy and lean but kinda skinny. It’s tough to feel content. (Especially when I walk in a park and see people doing callisthenics and realize I’m actually so weak even if I lift heavy weights lol). Thank you for sharing :)
Thanks Tommy! One day the PowerPuff Girls will have their own Substack post... maybe.......
And yes, the grass truly is greener on the other side, as is how there will always be people stronger, faster, leaner, fitter than we are. Still learning how to take myself, at this current moment, in stride, while also pushing myself to be better if I know I can be.
Really enjoyed this! Is there any other way to achieve something than to commit to it (pay for it) and then figure out how to get there later? Because if there is, I don't know about it haha.
Public commitment is one! I have an unspoken public commitment to publish on this Substack every week so every Sunday night I'm furiously editing away.
Another one in the opposite of paying is to get a paid gig. I've said yes to editing PowerPoints, running events, and copywriting without being 100% confident (though I'd say I knew I was capable). Often times it's more of a confidence gap than a skill gap, so a bit of pressure (from being paid) helps :)
I guess a part of me feels like those are different forms of the same thing, committing before you're ready and then figuring it out how to make it happen from there. But it's really helpful to think about the different forms of it; thank you! :)
It seems kind of like the question, "If a tree falls in the woods and no one hears it, does it make a sound?" "If a person does something for the wrong reasons that brings benefit, does it count?" Of course the answer is, "It depends." But if those wrong reasons don't cause anyone harm, then why not make use of them? Sounds to me like you're creatively and successfully navigating the complex path of human change.
Wow thanks for putting this so eloquently, Rick — the path of human change is complex indeed. And that whether it's good or bad often depends.
Running was very similar for me for a long time. Then, quite recently, I went back home to live with my parents for three weeks and there, bored of being stuck inside the house, started running around their little condo. Something shifted. Now, I look forward to the pre and post of running. It feels good. It always feels terrible while I am doing it though 😀
I relate to this so much - I never regret going out for a run and my body always feels better afterwards. Sometimes it does take the right conditions to make taking actions "easier". Excited to hear more about your running :)
You're so right, it's often not mutually exclusive and can be a confluence of factors! I'm trying to shift slightly to "want"/"excitement" though it IS a challenge every time. I guess running is truly an endurance sport, both physical and mental.